Anyway, I hope I get to see my friend instead/as well. It's been a fucking long time since we got together, but the Chinese New Year suits us as a time to get back together. Hopefully neither of our lives fall apart like they did last time we tried to meet up.
We both have always been driven by moonlight and blinded in the sun. We're the sort of stars you have to squint to see, anyway --too distant and lost in other things, so much of the time. You ever met a pair of friends so much alike it's a wonder they haven't killed each other yet? Yeah, that's not quite us, but it would be if he had my damn temper. Instead, we share our usual temperament: calm, slow to anger, and almost too respectful of others. It's hell getting anything done between us sometimes, haha.
Such a strange friendship we have, but I know he'll always be there for me, even if I grow tentacles or lost my mind (further than I already have). He's just an amazing guy, whether he believes it or not, and he's the best friend a girl could ask for. He knows my pitfalls and does his best to wrap me in confidence and esteem when I can't find my own.
I'm also considering hitting my friends up for guys. I've not been out in a while, and I need something --someone-- else in my life or I'll wither up. It's a possibility. But I'm not an internet/app dater. I've heard enough horror stories and I'm a bit old-fashioned, besides. I'd rather someone at least know the other party before shoving us at each other. And heaven knows, I have shit taste in guys when it comes to myself. Or maybe I'll see how the other half lives. Hell, I haven't been on a date since I fully came to terms with my sexuality. That's really depressing.
Life's just gonna pass me by if I keep going on like this. There's a reason I resolved to get out more this year --because I haven't been getting out at all, not with friends or anything else.
I'll get a chunk of vacation time in February, and there's gotta be someone to spend it with. I mean, I love my sister, but she's the entirety of my social interaction and that's kinda sick.
So wish me luck in the great unknown world of dating in your 20s. Because apparently I'm the lamest 24 year old in existence. Actually, you know what? Hit me with some dating advice, loves. 'Cause that's a horse I haven't been on in... oh, five years or more? Shit, that is depressing.
Let's find a more cheerful topic... How about my romance novel fixation? Oh, nope, just depressing with the other information. I've got it! ...Nope, my life is damn depressing through that lens.
Just need my friend to get back with me, because unlike me, he actually has a life.
I'll be back with you all on the flip-side.